Alone

Being alone is never a bad thing, or something to be fearful of. However, it is entirely dependent on where you are mentally to be able to handle being on your own. When I was alone for the first time when I was the age of 7 I was afraid of someone breaking into our country side home that was gated off, the young mind can create great distractions if you let it roam free of fear. When I first moved out on my own at 18 I felt so free but also lost. Asking myself "now what?". I left my home town and started university somewhere I wasn't too familiar with. I wasn't the most social person and I hated making friends. But luckily I took a crazy step and moved in with a group of three other girls, and near the end of our first year together we all were incredibly sad that we all were going our separate ways. We created a bond because we all took that step to go out on our own and experience something new. The point I am trying to make, is even if something is scary at first, taking a step out of your comfort zone will allow you to grow and stop being fearful of being on your own. Because of your experiences you will become more confident in yourself and allow yourself to try new things. You will unlock things you weren't aware of, and even get into new hobbies that you can invest your time in. Allowing that loneness to spark creativity and ingenuity.

However, like I mentioned at first. Your mentality can really make this all very hard to experience. If one is struggling mentally there is something already blocking you from being brave enough to leave that zone of comfort. I've been there, and in my experience everyone comes to a point of their own lives that they also feel this insecurity or anxiety. I know it is so incredibly hard, but you need to be brave and try to expand yourself out of the mind frame if you want to get better. Being stuck is never a good place to be, we are social and adventurous creatures. Being alone in nature or at a cafe never makes you truly alone. You are never alone in any circumstance, you just need to gather that strength that you have deep down, and focus it like a super power on something else that can distract you. Talk to someone, go for a walk, read a book, drink a cup of tea or coffee, bake a yummy goody, or do a puzzle. Do something that activates the mind. Because when you get stuck in your own mind, and begin to feel alone, you begin to despair and spiral, and once you do that it begins hard to leave that circle of thoughts. Repeat with me " I am not alone, I have people in my life that I can turn to, I have hobbies, in the next hour I am going to get up and do something fun..."

Being alone is a mind set... Not a physical escape.